Jack and I in our fancy duds for Dave's graduation dinner in San Francisco June 12, 2009

Journal August 2, 2009

We went to Utah Lake yesterday. It was so great. It was the first time I was on the lake this year. I also went to Jacki’s and took Jackson with me yesterday morning for Logan’s birthday party (he turned 3 yesterday). Then Jackson and I met up with dad, Mindi and Dave and kids at the lake. I brought lunch from Wendy’s with me, of course they messed up the whole order. I ordered 4 grilled chicken club sandwiches, two regular and two without mayo, they came as fried chicken clubs on three of the orders and one spicy chicken no club. I didn’t check them at Wendy’s and it was too late to do anything about them on the lake. But it was still fun.

My hair is growing slowly. It has so many curliques that it looks a lot shorter than it is. I mostly go without my wig around the house. But I have an added bonus of more hair growing on my face. I feel like the bearded lady in the circus. Jack says it isn’t that bad but I don’t feel very beautiful. But oh well, I am happy to be alive.

This was catch up week for me because we have been gone so much this last month. So I was mostly in my office all week. I had been working on sending packages to Jon, Jess, Jett, Ben, Jordan and Bradon. I finally got them all ready and mailed Friday. I bought Jon and his friends matching ties. I thought it would be way cool if they chose a day each month to wear the tie to remind them of their friendship and the great unity of serving together as missionaries throughout the world. A little hokey I know, but I still wanted to do it. It made me happy to think of them doing it so even if they don’t I will be happy thinking they are.

My lesson today for Sunday School class (I teach the 12-14 year olds) is on Peace in Troubled Times. The scripture reference is Ephesians 6: 10-18
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

My favorite quote in the lesson is from Prophet George Albert Smith. He gave this promise to church members to remember in troubled times. “There are two influences in the world. The one is the influence of our Heavenly Father and the other is the influence of Satan. We can take our choice which territory we want to live in, that of our Heavenly Father or that of Satan. There is a line of demarcation, well defined. On one side of the line is the Lord’s territory. On the other side of the line is the devil’s territory. If you will stay on the Lord’s side of the line, you are perfectly safe, because the adversary of all righteousness cannot cross that line.”
Then my lesson ends with these profound and true words. This world increasingly challenges our faith in God and our standards of righteousness. If we would be able to stand, as Paul says, we must prepare now by wearing the armor of righteousness. With it we can move forward knowing that all will be well. Our righteousness will bring us peace even in the midst of troubled times. So, there you go. Wonderful words from a Prophet and so needed today.

I am trying to set up a time to go to the lake with friends and family. I need to go up to Jordanelle and Deer Creek and see if I can see an area where people can hang out while they are waiting for turns to ride the boat. We use to do this all the time a Flaming Gorge. We would load up food, chairs, games etc for the day. The difference is that there were lots of beach areas where you could bring the boat right up to where you were hanging out and so it was easy to trade people in and out of the boat and everyone still had fun even if they weren’t in the boat.


I know this church is true. I am so thankful to have to missionaries out in the world sharing this glorious news. I love my family so much. I love my Savior and I am so thankful for the atonement, for the opportunity we have to repent and try harder to live as Heavenly Father wants us to. I have so many blessings, so much in my life. I sometimes feel like I want to sing/shout right out loud with the joy of it all (sometimes I do when no one is around because that would be embarrassing if someone heard me shouting for no reason). I want to try harder to stand for righteousness, to wear the armor of God, to be part of the Lord’s territory at all times.

Feller Family Reunion July 2 - 5, 2009

These pictures where taken as each family left our Feller Family Reunion. Even though we aren't all dressed up and fancy we are a dang cute family.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 

July 5, 2009
Happy Birthday land that I love!!! I am so blessed to live in America. I am scared for some of the directions we are going but have faith that our leaders will remember the freedoms that have made our America so great.
It has been crazy here for the past few weeks. I had my petscan June 29th and received the results on Thursday July 1st. I am still cancer free. So yeah for me! I was a little nervous to go to my result appointment, but there you go I am good.
A few years ago we decided to start are own immediate family reunion. I was I afraid if we didn’t get it started that we wouldn’t be able to find a time for all of us that didn’t interfere with spouses reunions and stuff. So our little family reunion was over July 4th. It was Jed and Jamie’s year to be in charge and they arranged for us to rent a cabin up Sundance area. It was so beautiful and so fun. But our life was crazy busy getting ready for it. Marci and her kids arrived last Monday evening. Jed and Jamie arrived from visiting Jamie’s family in Green River on Wednesday early afternoon. Eric arrived Wednesday night. The reunion started Thursday. With shopping, packing, planning etc. it has been go, go, go. The reunion was awesome. I love all my kids so much and my grandkids are so darling and so fun to be with, that even though I am a little sleep deprived I wouldn’t change any of it (except for it to last longer) for a minute.
We had planned to take the boat to the reunion but as we were pulling out of the driveway the boat trailer came unhooked as we rounded the driveway, we heard a funny noise and I looked behind us and saw the boat and trailer come toward us at an odd angle. The trailer hit the curb which I am sure stopped it from causing more damage than it did. The back of the truck will need some paint and the plastic casing over the trailer part where you cinch up the anchor is damaged. After we looked at the damage and with Jamie and Marci’s helped put the trailer back on we decided to go ahead and bring it. As we continued on down the windy road to the freeway the rain just started pouring. Jack asked where we were going to park the boat. I called Jed and Jamie to see if they had arrived at the cabin yet to see if they thought we could park a boat under the carport. They hadn’t arrived yet, we knew it would be up a windy canyon road and Jack asked if we would have enough room to maneuver parking the boat. On the way down the hill to the freeway Jack made an executive decision to not bring the boat. We turned around and took the boat home. By the time we turned around and brought the boat home the boat was soaking wet and Jack and I where drenched through and through just parking the boat in the garage. We left at 2:00 pm and got to the cabin a 4:30 pm (should have been there by 2:45 or 3:00 pm). We had Gabe, Isaac and Karsten with us. They had been in the car almost 3 hours and we didn’t hear a peep out of them until we were about 10 minutes from the cabin and then they wanted to know if we where almost there. They were totally involved with their DS’s which was so great in this situation because it was pretty scary, plus we had the thunder (really loud), lightning and a pretty amazing rain storm.
Everyone was to the cabin in time for a yummy dinner. We just visited and played games the rest of the evening. Friday we went on a short hike as the road ended and we couldn’t get where we wanted to. We played family cranium and Pictionary which with the kids. We had delicious meals each day because we have such amazing cooks in our family and tons of snacks. Friday night we played Mafia until 2:00 am. I am sure you can guess who was still up playing till the very end, yeah it was me. Saturday we played poor man’s paint ball. You put flour and marshmallows in a bag and shake them up divide in teams and throw the marshmallows at the opposing team we had dark shirts and light shirts teams, but soon it didn’t matter because you couldn’t tell who was light or dark because of all the flour. The kids had a blast. Amber brought all the stuff for it, they had played it in YM and YW. Josh had made swords out of noodles for a Get the treasure game where you have to run to the treasure without getting hit by the sword. Saturday night we went to the Staduim of Fire. Today we just packed up after breakfast and took a few pictures of the families as they left. I went to bed about 2:00 am each night and got up about 8:00 am which normally I wouldn’t even blink an eye but since the end of my chemo I have been sleeping 7 – 8 hours per night, so I am exhausted. But, very happily exhausted. I love being with my family. I cried a little as they all left. Big surprise I know.
Jamie and Kirk have a little nephew who was run over by his older brother in a truck Tuesday night before the Reunion. It has been an amazing experience to see the Lord’s hand blessing this family and this little boy. He isn’t quite two and the damage was so extensive to his head they didn’t think he would last the night. But through priesthood blessings and Heavenly Father’s tender mercies he has pretty much healed himself. All the doctors and everyone are amazed at his progress. Miracles truly surround.
I am so thankful for all the miracles that Heavenly Father places in our lives. Wow, the trailer thing could have been a disaster, my petscan could have turned out differently, everyone traveling safely to all our different activities, little Alex, all amazing miracles which I am so thankful for. I know the church is true. I know we have a loving Father in Heaven and Savior, Jesus Christ who want to bless our lives if we will let them. Love to all!! Life is great!!!