July 2-5, 2009 and yet again more reunion pictures

Our family pictures from this reunion are in my August posts!

July 5, 2009
Happy Birthday land that I love!!! I am so blessed to live in America. I am scared for some of the directions we are going but have faith that our leaders will remember the freedoms that have made our America so great.
It has been crazy here for the past few weeks. I had my petscan June 29th and received the results on Thursday July 1st. I am still cancer free. So yeah for me! I was a little nervous to go to my result appointment, but there you go I am good.
A few years ago we decided to start are own immediate family reunion. I was I afraid if we didn’t get it started that we wouldn’t be able to find a time for all of us that didn’t interfere with spouses reunions and stuff. So our little family reunion was over July 4th. It was Jed and Jamie’s year to be in charge and they arranged for us to rent a cabin up Sundance area. It was so beautiful and so fun. But our life was crazy busy getting ready for it. Marci and her kids arrived last Monday evening. Jed and Jamie arrived from visiting Jamie’s family in Green River on Wednesday early afternoon. Eric arrived Wednesday night. The reunion started Thursday. With shopping, packing, planning etc. it has been go, go, go. The reunion was awesome. I love all my kids so much and my grandkids are so darling and so fun to be with, that even though I am a little sleep deprived I wouldn’t change any of it (except for it to last longer) for a minute.
We had planned to take the boat to the reunion but as we were pulling out of the driveway the boat trailer came unhooked as we rounded the driveway, we heard a funny noise and I looked behind us and saw the boat and trailer come toward us at an odd angle. The trailer hit the curb which I am sure stopped it from causing more damage than it did. The back of the truck will need some paint and the plastic casing over the trailer part where you cinch up the anchor is damaged. After we looked at the damage and with Jamie and Marci’s helped put the trailer back on we decided to go ahead and bring it. As we continued on down the windy road to the freeway the rain just started pouring. Jack asked where we were going to park the boat. I called Jed and Jamie to see if they had arrived at the cabin yet to see if they thought we could park a boat under the carport. They hadn’t arrived yet, we knew it would be up a windy canyon road and Jack asked if we would have enough room to maneuver parking the boat. On the way down the hill to the freeway Jack made an executive decision to not bring the boat. We turned around and took the boat home. By the time we turned around and brought the boat home the boat was soaking wet and Jack and I where drenched through and through just parking the boat in the garage. We left at 2:00 pm and got to the cabin a 4:30 pm (should have been there by 2:45 or 3:00 pm). We had Gabe, Isaac and Karsten with us. They had been in the car almost 3 hours and we didn’t hear a peep out of them until we were about 10 minutes from the cabin and then they wanted to know if we where almost there. They were totally involved with their DS’s which was so great in this situation because it was pretty scary, plus we had the thunder (really loud), lightning and a pretty amazing rain storm.
Everyone was to the cabin in time for a yummy dinner. We just visited and played games the rest of the evening. Friday we went on a short hike as the road ended and we couldn’t get where we wanted to. We played family cranium and Pictionary which with the kids. We had delicious meals each day because we have such amazing cooks in our family and tons of snacks. Friday night we played Mafia until 2:00 am. I am sure you can guess who was still up playing till the very end, yeah it was me. Saturday we played poor man’s paint ball. You put flour and marshmallows in a bag and shake them up divide in teams and throw the marshmallows at the opposing team we had dark shirts and light shirts teams, but soon it didn’t matter because you couldn’t tell who was light or dark because of all the flour. The kids had a blast. Amber brought all the stuff for it, they had played it in YM and YW. Josh had made swords out of noodles for a Get the treasure game where you have to run to the treasure without getting hit by the sword. Saturday night we went to the Staduim of Fire. Today we just packed up after breakfast and took a few pictures of the families as they left. I went to bed about 2:00 am each night and got up about 8:00 am which normally I wouldn’t even blink an eye but since the end of my chemo I have been sleeping 7 – 8 hours per night, so I am exhausted. But, very happily exhausted. I love being with my family. I cried a little as they all left. Big surprise I know.
Jamie and Kirk have a little nephew who was run over by his older brother in a truck Tuesday night before the Reunion. It has been an amazing experience to see the Lord’s hand blessing this family and this little boy. He isn’t quite two and the damage was so extensive to his head they didn’t think he would last the night. But through priesthood blessings and Heavenly Father’s tender mercies he has pretty much healed himself. All the doctors and everyone are amazed at his progress. Miracles truly surround.
I am so thankful for all the miracles that Heavenly Father places in our lives. Wow, the trailer thing could have been a disaster, my petscan could have turned out differently, everyone traveling safely to all our different activities, little Alex, all amazing miracles which I am so thankful for. I know the church is true. I know we have a loving Father in Heaven and Savior, Jesus Christ who want to bless our lives if we will let them. Love to all!! Life is great!!!

This last month has been a bit crazy!

June 7, 2009

I had a new darling wig. When I went to Wyoming with Jack a few weeks ago last Sunday I had taken it off and put it on the floor in the backseat of the truck. I think the metal on the seats or the floor must have gotten hot and melted the fibers on my wig a little bit. It isn’t too bad, most people can’t tell but it isn’t as easy to comb and it doesn’t look quite the same. So there you go even if you have wigs you still can have hair problems. Life is a joyous round of opportunities don’t you think?

It is beautiful and green here Jack has been doing his gardening thing and everything looks wonderful. I am getting ready for our family reunion which will be over the 4th of July. I want to put together books for each family of some of our stories and some pedigree charts. I will see if I get any of that done.

We had a lovely weekend with my mom and dad and my sister Bev and brother in law Ken a few weeks ago in St. George where they live. Jack and I visited with my mom and dad for about 45 minutes on Saturday night. After visiting with my parents we went to Texas Roadhouse with Bev and Ken. Sunday we went to church at Ridgeview assisted living chapel with mom and dad. My dad passed the sacrament as he usually does and they asked me to give the closing prayer. I cried in the pray as I thanked Heavenly Father for blessing our lives with our moms and dads, it was embarrassing (a little) but heartfelt and my mom and dad felt loved so I guess that is okay. My mom didn’t want to lay down after the meeting because she didn’t want to miss a single second with us, but we were going to Stacy and Kirby’s for dinner (my sister’s son and daughter in law) and Bev said she would be to tired if she didn’t lay down for a little bit so after an hour and a half of Jack and I visiting with them we left so mom would lay down. It was a lovely visit. We got to see two of my sweet nieces and nephews and their families.

I have been reading the conference talks and loved President Eyring talk on Adversity. I loved all of his comments. One of the sections of scripture he used was when Joseph Smith was in the Liberty jail.
“O God, where art thou? And where is the pavilion that covereth thy hiding place? “How long shall thy hand be stayed, and thine eye, yea thy pure eye, behold from the eternal heavens the wrongs of thy people and of thy servants, and thine ear be penetrated with their cries?” The Lord’s reply has helped me and can encourage us all in times of darkness. Here it is: “My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;“And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.“Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands.“Thou art not yet as Job; thy friends do not contend against thee, neither charge thee with transgression, as they did Job.
I especially love the part about “thy friends do stand by thee”. What a blessing it is to have a loving family and sweet friends that stand by you at all times. We are so blessed to have such a wonderful Father in Heaven and Savior that has placed in our lives earthly angels to stand by us.

June 21, 2009

Dave's graduation was so cool. Thursday night we flew into San Francisco with Jamie and Kirk, we met Marci and Eric in Oakland our flight got in three hours late so we decided to wait for them. Josh and Amber where suppose to arrive at 8:00 pm but flew in the next day because their flight was delayed until 1:00 am Friday morning. We thought we would just take a cab everywhere but at the last minute I rented a car at the airport for $194.00 from National and a van for $464.00 from Alamo. We decided to get a van at National even though we had only reserved a car because there would be 8 of us When we got to the rental pick up place we picked out a van (luckily it had 8 seats) and drove up to the window to check out. Because they had so many vans available they let us have it for the price quoted for a car. I was so excited that it worked out that way. We found a place to eat by the airport and then picked up Marci and Eric. By the time we got to San Fran and found our little duplex house it was after midnight. Mindi and Dave wanted us to be to their place to help load the moving truck at 8:00 am Friday morning and Jack, Jamie, Kirk, Marci and Eric all wanted to run at the Presido before helping pack the truck. Josh and Amber needed a ride at 9:30 am. I dropped everyone off and ran to the Bart (Josh and Amber took the shuttle and train from Oakland to downtown San Fran) to pick up Josh and Amber. We helped pack the truck for three or four hours, then headed back to our place to shower. Then we headed to Mama's a fun little breakfast place that is only open until 3:00pm got there around 2:00 pm. Ran the boys to china town and the girls to get pedicures and manicures then picked everyone up and headed to our place for Jack and I get to all dolled up for the fancy dinner at the Ritz for Dave's graduation. Jack brought his tux and had bought a new cumberband and bow tie at Nordstrom's before we left and I got a beautiful dress at Dillard's. Mindi had worked her magic and transformed a sleeveless gown into a beautiful chic modest gown that was absolutely gorgeous. Dave looked great in his tux. I will post a picture as soon as I down load them. Saturday was The Thank a Bunch brunch which we attended with Mindi and Dave, and Dave’s parents. It started at 10:30 am and didn't get over until 1:30pm. The kids had walked to golden gate park and wanted us to pick them up and take them downtown. I was so excited about my dress for Friday night that I forgot to pack a dress for church and for Dave's graduation so I needed to go to the downtown mall, dad needed to pick up his silk jacket from the cleaners and we were to be to the The Prime Rib restaurant by 4:30 for Dave's graduation dinner with our family and his family. Sunday we had 9:00 am church, we had to pack up and be out of our little house by noon. Graduation was at 2:00 pm. We had to eat before graduation. Graduation ended around 4:30 pm. Pictures etc. Marci and Eric needed a ride to the Bart station (they almost missed their plane). Jamie was taking Molly home so Mindi and Dave wouldn't have to travel with her. We hit traffic on the way to the airport. Jamie and Kirk's flight was leaving at 8:15 pm to come home and our flight was suppose to leave at 8:45 (it was an hour late again) they barely made their flight. We loved every hectic minute.
Jack and I had a wonderful 5 days at the condo in San Diego. Each day we would go to the beach for 2- 3 hours, play scrabble at the beach (I am still the queen of scrabble), I won three out of five games. The weather was beautiful until Friday and Saturday. We still went to the beach on Friday but I had a sweatshirt on the whole time. We went to the temple Friday. I slept 7-8 hours almost every day we were there. I know, totally crazy. I think that is what my body’s schedule would like to be if I could pull it off every day. Go to bed between 12:00 and 12:30 and sleep until 8:00 to 8:30 am.
The gospel is true. I love my Savior and my Heavenly Father. We are truly a blessed family, blessed beyond measure. I am so thankful for the restored gospel. I thank our prophet Joseph Smith and Emma for all they sacrificed so that the gospel could come forth in this dispensation. I know we have a living prophet today in Thomas S. Monson and I know he is called of God. I am so thankful for my family. I am so thankful for my sweet missionaries and the rest of my awesome family.

June 28, 2009
Lots of news this week: Dave (our son in law) found out he passed the Dental boards. Jacki and Brian think they sold their house and they bought a lot in Daybreak (which is right by the new Oquirrah Temple (11000 S 3000 W). Jamie and Kirk are deciding on a builder for their home and hope to have it completed by next June and possibly be a home in the parade of homes. Jed and Jamie made an offer on a vacation home in Phoenix that has a lake and dock as part of its package.

It has been a little crazy around here the last few days. The week started off with me getting way behind. Aaron our accountant needed my Qbooks before Jack and I left for Dave’s graduation (from Dental School). He was suppose to get them back to me Thursday before we left. He had some questions and I didn’t get the message in time so I didn’t get them back from him. Monday I called him and told him I desperately needed them as I was already two weeks behind only to find out he was out of town until Wednesday. I had planned to go with Jack to Wyoming, but I couldn’t go because I didn’t have my Qbooks back on my computer with all the accountant’s corrections that he had made on them. If I use them before I have the updated version with what Aaron (the accountant) has done on the files from all our different companies (7) when I download the files from the accountant it won’t transfer any work I have done so I had to pay bills and write checks and then remember to enter them after I received my Qbooks. I final got them from Aaron late Wednesday morning. This was all very stressful because I have tons to do to get ready for the family reunion and kids in and out of my room which I love them to be here but it is a distraction and hard to get my stuff done. Dave’s brother’s temple wedding was Friday morning and I watched the girls for them, I had had them the night before because Jamie had a nephew’s (on the Wersland side) graduation to attend so she asked me to watch them and pick up Mindi and Dave from the airport. Their flight was an hour late. Friday while I was watching the girls Jacki called and asked if they could come up and spend the night and if I could watch their kids for them while they look at houses. So I had a melt down for a minute, not because I didn’t want to do it but because I just have so much to do to get caught up. But no worries, I remembered that if I don’t get everything done that I want to for the reunion it will be okay I can do it for the next one. Also Friday night Jed flew in and needed a place to stay and a car to borrow to go to Wyoming.

Jacki and Brian if the sale on their house goes through, want to live with us while there house is being built. It would be done by December. So we will have a house full. I told them we would get to see what it was like to live a polygamous life style (with three extra guys.

I am a little scared for my pet scan tomorrow. I will have the results by Wednesday. I am not scared of the pet scan but just what it could mean.

I have had a cold on top of all the craziness going on. But other than that I feel great.

I know the church is true. I know the scriptures are true and that the Book of Mormon has so many answers to everyday life problems. I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I know we have a living prophet today who has revelation from our loving Heavenly Father. I am so thankful that I have been blessed with my amazing family and a dear loving companion, my Jack. I am thankful for his example, for his worthiness to bear the Holy Priesthood and the ability to use it to bless each of us. What an awesome power to be able to have in our home. I am thankful for the atonement and the power of repentance. I am thankful that I have an older brother who loves me so much that he would give up his life to save mine. I am so blessed.

May 30, 2009
I had my port taken out Thursday. It was an interesting procedure. They used a local and then cut in the same place they had used to insert it (I think I haven’t seen it yet because it is still steri stripped). I lot of pulling tugging and snipping and then a really weird sensation and a pop as the tubing that was in the vein going to my heart came out. Then more pushing and tugging and a lot more snipping, just when I thought I was going to be sick because it seemed like the doctor was snipping lots of stuff, he pulled out this little metal disk almost shaped like those small heart chocolates you see around Valentine’s day with about 5 inches long of tiny tubing attached to it. What a wonderous age we live in. The whole process took about 20 minutes. The area around the stitches and where he was pulling and tugging has been a little sore, but other than that I am good to go.
Funny story kind of: On Monday Pond’s plumbing came to service the air conditioner and Paco was at the house to faux paint the laundry room, the guest bathroom, the master bathroom and my office. Anyway, after I had showered and got mostly dressed, I didn’t have my wig on and I had a camisole on but not the shirt/jacket I was going to wear over it. It was getting really hot in the bathroom with the door shut and thought I could sneak out and shut my bedroom door so I could leave the bathroom door open to get some air into the bathroom so it wouldn’t be so hot. I had my mascara in one hand and opened the bathroom door and was just going to rush out and shut my bedroom door, well I am sure you guessed that of course the Pond’s plumbing guy his name is Dan was looking for me and had come into my room trying to find me just as I opened the door from the bathroom. I am not sure who was more shocked him or me. I nonchalantly said oh are you ready for me to sign something, he said he was I just said okay just a minute, I shut the door and had to laugh at myself and take a big breath as of course I was twice as hot now. I put a hat on (I thought at that point a wig would be pointless) and my shirt and went out to sign the papers and tried to act like it was the most common thing in the world to see a bald, partial dressed woman waving a wand of mascara around.
This week on Wednesday morning I went to Jackson’s preschool graduation. They did a mother goose theme, the kids repeated a mother goose rhyme for each of the kid’s that was graduating. Jackson’s was Jack be Nimble and he was in front and had a candlestick he jumped over. It was very cute.
Thursday Karsten had Rad kids graduation. It is a program to teach kid’s self defense against anyone who tries to kidnap them or harm them teaching them to yell, kick, elbow and peck at eyes. It is a very cool program. Addy turned to me and said she hoped that Karsten wouldn’t try any of those moves on her. I told I didn’t think she had to worry about Karsten because he understood when to use them, but that she might have to worry about her other little brother, Jackson.
We had theater tickets from Sterling Financial (like we have had in the past) Jacki, Brian and kids came with us as well as Kelly and Becki. We saw the new animated movie from Disney/Pixair called Up. It was really cute, as usual I cried in it. I was getting better about crying at a drop of the hat but since my missionaries left and since I was diagnosed with cancer it is just as bad if not worse than ever.
Today (Saturday) Jack and I went to Austyn and McCaden’s dance recital. They have so many kids that take dance out in Josh and Amber’s area that they had to divide the kids into two groups. One started at 10:30am and one started at 1:00pm McCaden’s was in the morning and Austyn’s was in the afternoon. It was really fun to watch them. They did a great job.
From there we are headed to St. George to see dad and mom and Bev and Ken. Dad has been falling a lot lately. He hurt his elbow in a fall last week and Thursday night he fell and my mom called Bev crying at 3:00 am to come help him because he couldn’t get up.
We are looking into trying to do some church service around home so I emailed for some information about hosting church events at the conference center and temple square to helping with inner city missions. We have to get interviews with the bishop and stake president and then go from there. So we might be able to do some type of service mission while our kids are serving their missions. We will have to see if our erratic schedule will fit into any service area the church has.
Jack has been so sweet and loving. I can’t imagine traveling any road without him and his constant love and support. It always amazes me that he loves me so much, in spite of all my little quirks and oddities. I love you sweetheart.
My life is glorious, my blessings so numerous I can’t count them. I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I am so thankful to be here on this beautiful earth. I am so thankful for precious family and dear friends what would life be like without these earthly angels that Heavenly Father has blessed our lives with? Love to all, you are the best of the best!!!

May 23, 2009 Journal

We had stake conference last week. One of the speakers on Sunday morning gave a talk that really helped me to understand a principle of the gospel that I have been struggling with. I always wondered how Heavenly Father could keep forgiving us for making the same mistakes over and over again. She used the example of patience. She said that every night she would pray for forgiveness for being impatient with her kids and said how she would try to do better but she always felt how could He keep forgiving her for not learning this lesson of patience that she kept asking forgiveness for and asking help with. She felt unworthy to keep asking for his help when she was impatience with her children the very next day. A few days later she was listening to her little girl practice on the piano and it came to her (through a still small voice), that she wasn’t upset with her daughter for all the mistakes she was making on the piano selection, in fact she loved that she was trying over and over to get it right. A little voice whispered to her this is how it is with Heavenly Father. This life is our practice session, we keep practicing each principle over and over until we have it down and then we move on to the next principle. He is willing to forgive us over and over because he knows this is our practice time some things we may need to practice on for most our life and other things we will master and move on. It was like an epiphany to me.

We are on our way to Green River to run in the 5k Memorial Race for the year anniversary of Keith Young’s death. I can’t believe it has been a year from his death. That was a crazy time. Jon was graduating from High School. He had lacrosse stake finals, and track state finals. Marci had just had Meg I went out for 3 or 4 days at the beginning of the month and then I asked Jessica if she would go out to help Marci for a few more days because it was such a busy time and I couldn’t stay longer. While Jessica was there Marci had appendicitis and had her appendix removed. It was such a blessing that Jessica was there when it happened. But it was a stressful and busy time. Anyway back to traveling to Green River, Jamie and Kirk are coming with us. The race is at 10:00 am Saturday. We will run the race, visit for a bit, shower and then head back home.

Mindi and Dave came in on Wednesday evening. They went to Logan Thursday and where suppose to be there until tomorrow, but Dave has an appointment with a dentist in Provo for an associateship tomorrow morning so they will be home without us for a day darn it.

Sunday May 24
We are now back home from the race and it is Sunday morning. I was pretty impressed with myself, I came in 74th in the race and my time was 42 minutes and 17 seconds for a 5 k. They said they had around 380 runners/walkers. Jack signed me up for a runner although I don’t run the whole time I run two minutes and walk a minute or something like that. But it was good he signed me up for that because if you were a walker you couldn’t run at all. A cute friend said she was going to have to talk to her personal trainer because here I was I had Lymphoma and I beat her. The Young’s are an awesome family. It was a real honor to participate and be part of Keith’s memorial run. We saw so many dear people that have impacted our lives. It was wonderful to be there.

This is the Thursday I would usually have my chemo treatment. I am so glad that I don’t have to go in for that today. Hip Hip Hooray! I feel great. I feel like it was a dream and I finally woke up.

It is sad how quickly when a crisis is over our total dependence on the Lord slacken s a bit. Worldly thoughts and feelings come back in a rush. Before I was hoping to live through this experience and every day was a gift. Now I am worrying about how long will it take for my hair to grow back (it seems like it will take forever), dieting, wrinkles and insecurities. My feelings seemed to change overnight from how grateful I am for who I am to worrying about all my short comings and all the things I need to improve on.

This experience gave me the opportunity to be humbled and over flowing with gratitude for each day and for each person in my life. It gave me the opportunity to learn more about my Savior and my Heavenly Father. I want to do all I can to continue to have the feeling of gratitude and love for my Heavenly father and my Savior as I did through this experience. To remember I am a daughter of a Father in Heaven who knows me and loves me and blesses my life in ways I never thought possible. I want to remember the wonderful power of prayer and the strength I received everyday from all who were praying for me. I want to remember always how loved and cared for I felt by all my sweet family and dear friends.

Sunday was a great day. I got to talk to all my kids including my missionaries. It was so wonderful. I talked to Jessica in the morning and Jonathan at night. Since Australia is 17 hours ahead of us Jon called on his P-day. We called Jessica per her instructions at a member’s home at 10:30 am on Sunday morning. They both sounded so great. Just a few times did I have to stop talking so they wouldn’t hear the tears in my voice.

Mailing packages to my missionaries can be a little scary and frustrating. Last Friday I was mailing packages to Jessica and Jonathan. I weighted the packages and did the online postage thing because you save about $2.00 per package if you print your postage online. I used my bathroom scale to weigh the packages. I thought I had the right weight. When I added the weight of the contents of the packages they came to about the weight that I had got from my bathroom scale. Another advantage of doing your packages from home is that this way you just have to drop the packages off on the counter by a postal worker. I was watching my granddaughter Kari so I got her all buckled in the car and got my packages and off we went to the post office. We headed into the post office. I let the postal worker know that the packages were there and we left to go to my car. The postal worker came running after me all huffy and puffy and told me that the weights were all wrong. He kept muttering about what a big head ache it was going to be to fix it and all the paper work. I asked him what he wanted me to do and he said well you made the mistake you take them home and fix it. It is a small post office with only one postal worker and the line was backing up, but I still thought wow, this guy has had a bad day. When I came back home I decided to do the priority mail flat rate box that is the same price as long as what you are mailing fits unto the box and weights less than 20 lbs. (I think). It was only $1.50 more so I requested a refund online for the other postage. By this time there was no way I would get to the post office before 4:30pm so I had to do postage for the next day. Saturday I printed the postage packed my two boxes in the flat rate medium size boxes, grabbed my tape and scissors and headed to the post office thinking this will be a snap. I would have done all of it at home but I decided since it was the same price I could add more weight to the boxes so I stopped at the store to add more stuff to the packages. My tape ran out as I was trying to close the packages and put the customs forms on, so I still had to wait in line and have a postal worker help me. But it didn’t take as long as it would have if I needed them to do everything. Another time I was mailing packages to my missionaries I got to the Post Office at 4:25pm, the line was so long that by the time I got to the front it was 4:55 pm, I was new to mailing stuff internationally and didn’t have the customs form filled out and the postal worker took one look at me and said you have to come back tomorrow we are closed. I was flabbergasted! So there you go, two of my post office adventures for the last few months. I get a little nervous whenever I have to mail a package. Kind of like that Seinfield comedy show when they say no soup for you, because one of the characters did something the cook didn’t like.

Jack and I are in Boston. It is a charming city. So much history, beautiful old buildings and churches. We are loving being here.

A couple of nights ago we went to the opening ceremonies for the AAO (American Association of Orthodontists) and listened to the Boston Pops. They played award winning show tunes from Movies and Broadway. Most of the movie tunes were from movies when I was a youngster. It was fun to hear them and very nostalgic. One of the selections they played was “Some Where Over the Rainbow”. It brought back a very real picture of myself around age 11.

My home had a large patio area over our garage. I remember putting on roller skates and skating around this patio singing “Somewhere Over The Rainbow” with so much longing and angst wondering if my dreams would ever come true. My dreams have always been pretty simple and basic. I wanted to love someone with all my heart and have him love me back and I wanted to be a mom. As I was sitting in the concert listening to the Boston Pops play this song I realized my dreams have come true and not only come true but have gone beyond what I ever could have dreamed or imagined and of course I started crying as I realized the little girl who just wanted to be loved and give love has been blessed with so much more than she ever deserved or dreamed or imagined.

How thankful I am to my Heavenly Father who always blesses us beyond our understanding. I could never of dreamed I would have 8 amazing beautiful children and 6 other children whom I love as my own as each has entered my heart as they came to love one of these amazing children of mine, tons and tons of beautiful grandchildren to dazzle me with light, love and laughter and a constant and true source of love everlasting in my faithful, and loving Jack. The little girl longing for dreams of love and someone worth loving, the dream, the pray, came true.

My heart literally over flows with love and thankfulness to my Father and my Savior for the many miracles that have happened in my life and for his constant care in watching over me. We take the church so much for granted, I can’t even imagine how people live without its principles and knowledge. Without knowing why we are here and knowing about our Savior and all he has done not just for me but for each of us. Without knowing we have a loving Father in Heaven who knows us and wants us to return to him. Without knowing we can live again with our most precious family if we but follow our Savior and our Father in Heaven. It is truly and honor and a blessing to belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

I just needed to say again how very thankful I am for the love and support I have felt during my little skirmish with cancer. The many lovely meals and surprise goodies have blessed both my heart and my body. The tons of emails, notes, visits and loving thoughts, have helped me to stay positive and happy which everyone knows is the first step in healing. The constant faith, prayers, fasting, putting my name on the temple rolls and loving priesthood blessings have helped to heal my broken body. Thank you, thank you so
much for your love, faith, concern and support. My life has truly been blessed by each of you. I just want to gather each of you close to me and give you a big hug and tell you personally how much you mean to me. You have made a difference in my life. My dreams could never come close to imaging I would be blessed to love so many people! I love you, I pray for you, thank you again for all you have done for me.

Since I wont be writing progress reports every week, I feel a little awkward just sending you my weekly journal writings, I will continue to post these on my blogspot at www.margofeller blogspot.com. I will send my progress journal entry after I have had my quarterly pet scans. So in the meantime check out my blogspot if you get the chance or want to.
Love,
Margo